Searching for peace

inner peace and contentment will only be found through the teachings of God and his Prophets. When you needed strength or guidance just kneel, cross your arms, close your eyes, address God with “dear Heavenly Father“ always thank him for blessing you before you ask for anything. Be humble and give your whole heart to Him. then when you ask for your favour you will receive it if your deserving enough, and not if you have to learn it yourself. Which turned out God liked to watch me suffer mentally. if I Was ever brave enough to mention this shameful fact, I was often told it’s probably because my heart wasn’t open to Gods suggestions. I mean REALLY? a kind, giving, caring young woman who has said her prayers and read her scriptures and kept herself “clean” cannot be open to Gods message for her?!

so there, religion failed me. So what you might say, why is that such a problem for you? I’ll tell you why. I spent everyday for 22 years of my life trying to get God to help me. I perfected the practice. So when you walk away how do you find peace without those practices? The brain has literally been trained from birth to turn to an imaginary figure or words in a book. and retraining that brain is a constant battle I now face. I’m now Finding my peace, my own deep places in my mind to cope with life and I’m doing it all raising a family, a job, friends. Some days, like today, it’s impossible.